There is something wrong with my chest.
Like something crushing my lungs, or pressed my chest.
I want to stab it.
Or take this weird feeling out.
I can breath, but it feels weird.
I think my deep dark thoughts is trying to crawl out from my body.
I think she wants to see me breakdown.
As the clock ticking.
I become someone that have forgot how beautiful life is.
I can’t even describe how does it feels right now.
Why this silence feels so loud.
This is going to be over. Not now, not tomorrow.
You blame me because i listened to what they said.
I tried not to hear,
But they were yelling on my ears.
was the last time
to your cheek?
(The question for myself)
“This place is so dark! How can she lives in this place, where the light only can get in is through those cracks!”
“I need to put some colours to this place”
“The place where the demons are hiding”
“The place where bad thoughts comes”
So, I put the prism in her darkest thoughts.
When the light strikes the prism,
The light turns to be rainbow.
And there, the smile.
Aah, her smile.
“What do you want for your birthday?”
I was thinking about flowers,
But i knew, i needed something more than that.
“Your time, would be the best gift that you’ve ever give to me”.
Before i go to sleep,
I always wish that you..
Will never be okay.